Thank God..

today i was feeling rather down..muz have been the effects of studying for an entire week..felt really tired of studying and wondered why i am doing all these..cldn't feel God..so i asked Him why has He hidden Himself from me...then i stumbled upon a clip on youtube..it's a clip by Worldvision..it reminded me again of how lucky i am..i don't deserve the grace that i'm receiving..i shld be thankful for what i have..why shld i be complaining, when the children in the third world countries are suffering from famine, poor sanitary living conditions, forced labour and a lack of education..if only there was a way to make the world more equal..if only resources were not so unequally distributed..so thank you Lord for all your blessings..i pray that one day there will be enough to go abt for everyone..

A happier post

ok..yay..finally..a happier post..! hmm..was quite stressed a few days ago..so bz with sch n p comm stuff(it's Engage!)..almost died..felt jaded and all...led the lunchtime prayer meeting n worship..quite badly prepared but really thank God for leading the whole session thru..but got so stressed had to go for a run yest..went 4km ard the neighbourhood...felt much better after that...today's dg attendance improved..! hoped they gained something fr today's sharing...met R on the way hm..had dinner.gotta hit the bks again..tmr got german sem test..argh..!

Overloaded

down wif a very bad flu the whole day..totally terrible..so tired..i feel like i'm overserving...juggling so many thing..church n crusade n studies n bills..so stressful..think it muz have weakened the immune system drastically..the past wk had been really stressful..so many things to do..tut n presentation n p comm stuff...i can't focus n conc..n being sick doesn't help...ok..poor S..my p comm ST..like really bz..cos i think the comm isn't the best..but i can't really help her much..i'm really bz as well..wonder y they didn't invite the other guys like tong etc..they're quite gd wad..gg to step down fr comm next sem..can't handle it anymore.I WANNA DO LESS...! commitment really is a scary word..need to check out wads fully in store b4 i commit the next time...i think i'm fast becoming like martha..do n do n do n do....need to be still n come b4 Him...ok..i hope the next post will be a happier post..=)

Reflections on Death

ok..quite sick today..used up 12 packs of tissue in less than 6 hrs..there was a sharp pain in my stomach throughout the journey hm..wonder if i'm dying..i'd be at a complete loss if i know today's my last day. wun noe wad to do..if today's your last day n u noe it, wad will u do..will u still go to sch as usual...? will you still study hard n mug in the library or do smthing else...? wad will you say to the pple ard u..? will u die w/o regrets..? i think i'm nt ready to die, cos there's still so many things i wanna do...i dread the thought of facing Him with an empty list..i've nt done much for Him..Life is so vulnerable..pple die all the time..nt juz the old n aged but the young as well..pple dying fr running marathons and all kinds of stuff..we shld really be grateful for everyday that we wake up finding ourselves still alive...but after a while..the enthusiasm to live fruitfully simply dwindles...its really hard to sustain it every morning..waking up to a day full of stuff to do..neverending lects, tuts, assignments n term papers..n all the other stuff that fills up the timetable..leaving u choking..gasping for air and some breathing space at the end of the day..ok this is such a morbid post..haha..death is like some kinda taboo topic for most pple...