updates and thanksgiving..

havn't had an entry for some time le..

some thoughts with regards to the past few months..


Grad Trip

hmm..very long trip for me..too long in fact..6 weeks overseas and on the go is no joke..i think I'm more suited for Singapore, seriously..

quite enriching in some aspects..finally saw some of the sites and monuments in france, italy, greece and turkey but was definitely very taxing..in many sense of the word..
throughout the trip I was meditating/ruminating on the Ecclesiastes passages..and i just wondered what was I doing..? i think it disrupted the mood of the trip quite a bit..it seemed like the world was beckoning so invitingly..how easy it is for us to lose ourselves, i thought..

ESE Experience
really was quite an experience..my CS1 CT was on maternity leave, so from day 2 onwards I had to take 3 of her classes..was almost like a full fledged teacher. very memorable and very steep learning curve. though some of my colleague felt like it hasn't been very fair on me, i think its been good. quite a shock having to take so many classes alone without prior experience but the Lord has His plans and I believe in Him. just hoped that His name has been glorified through the situation He put me in.

anw, on retrospect, I really enjoyed taking the classes..the classes I had were very fun and most of the time cooperative. quite sorry that i made some mistakes in class, both technically in subject matter=P and techniques wise, but I guess its part and parcel..they were all very endearing..

so things to thank God for for putting me in this situation..

1) steep accelerated learning curve

2) God glorified through my willingness to take the task, maybe?

3) got to really know the students and to build rapport with them

4) made me rely on Him more

also had some very painful/frustrating/heart wrenching moments..

had to relief 2 classes which were totally difficult to manage
one of the classes had students running all over and i almost had to call the DM..
the other class was plain rebellious and defiant..(i shall not go into the details)

but i guess God brought me through it all and He also used it to remind me of why He put me here..His love compels and He has enabled me to love others, even the unlovable ones..b'cos He has first loved me, and that they too, are precious in God's eyes.

also want to thank God for a good CT for my CS2, Mdm S who arranged for several observations with other teachers that i might learn more..

thank God also for letting me find favour among colleagues and students..

considering whether to go back to my ESE school or to my alma mater..a dilemma to be prayed over..

NIE

school has started..feeling a little disoriented still..but its getting better..was feeling rather lonely in school..didn't feel like i had spiritual support/company..then i thought of Jesus..and i felt comforted as I recalled the times when walked really close to God; and I know He's there beside me all the time, never leaving nor forsaking me..

anw..thank God for the 2 hr lunchbreak which i had alone..managed to have quiet myself down in the midst of busyness and to be still before God..thank God also for the friends made in class after the break..met someone who was also keen on missions and seemed like he walked with God..praise the Lord..=) then met more ppl from the same 'upgrading course'..and found fellow sisters in Christ..

lots of mugging to do..NIE really thinks very highly of us..they crammed our timetable with modules i can hardly breathe..hope i don't GG..