its a tough month, really. i must have said this umpteen times. I don't know how I got through, but I got through it. Thank God=)
Thank God for getting me thru grammar test (phew!)...thank God for getting me thru IPPT (i passed..!! no more rt..!!)..
i've triumphed over learnt helplessness, yes!
it seems really trivial.. but to me, its an affirmation of God's faithfulness (even though we're not)..still He is sovereign over all, and even if i didn't get thru, He's teaching us to give thanks in all circumstances.
BUT, i got thru anw, so thank God=) !!!
Thursday, 29 October 2009
Friday, 23 October 2009
Praising God in difficult times
its been a really difficult time for me this past month or so.. the workload at NIE is really crazy. was doing some simple math yesterday and found that we have more than twice the modules as compared to the degree program. perhaps they think grads can do it better so instead of the 4-6 modules for undergrads, they crammed 13 modules into 1 sem for the post grad students like us. so smart.
mission trip training has stepped up as well. peaked at 4 times a wk for last wk. lots of things to settle still, but little has been completed.
have to go for rt. twice a wk. hope i pass it this time rd, otherwise, it'll be 3 times a wk. then i'll really GG le.
lots of ministry work on hand to do as well. had youth ministry (facilitating lesson, leading worship, playing as musician, meetings and plannings)..have been neglecting I and J..feeling quite guilty but i really simply dun have more time on hand.. main congregation ministry too..but thanx to yix for helping out with translation duties.
On top of that, there have been people i believe God is leading me to reach out to, and along the way, edifying others. trying to minister to them as and when possible. just that day, i was praying with a pre-believing friend JY. still, there are many friends that have been contacting me, of whom i try to reciprocate (and nt ignore) in the hope that i'll be able to reach out to them someday, and that Christ's name will not be shamed by me.
sometimes i feel like martha, but its hard nt to be when you see needs everywhere. at times, it gets really overwhelming and i struggle so much. because of the hectic schedule and busyness, esp with ministry work, i neglect my walk with God. Oh what an irony it is!
but despite all these..i told the Lord; that i'll still give thanks in all circumstances, and praise and worship Him. i did just that yest on the school shuttle bus, and it was a bit difficult, but i still sang songs of worship in my heart. this morning, i've found the joy of worshipping God once more=) was reading ODB, and it reminded me of how the Lord always goes before us in all the paths that He is leading us (Jn 10:4) and it really reassured me. Somehow i started to worship spontaneously acapella and then it moved to worship with accompanyment. Indeed it is a joy to worship the Lord=) it realigns the focus back to Him instead of ourselves. yes, God is truely good! not because He gives me all the desires of my heart, but because He is God! ( we need to engage in a paradigm shift to achieve this perspective)
mission trip training has stepped up as well. peaked at 4 times a wk for last wk. lots of things to settle still, but little has been completed.
have to go for rt. twice a wk. hope i pass it this time rd, otherwise, it'll be 3 times a wk. then i'll really GG le.
lots of ministry work on hand to do as well. had youth ministry (facilitating lesson, leading worship, playing as musician, meetings and plannings)..have been neglecting I and J..feeling quite guilty but i really simply dun have more time on hand.. main congregation ministry too..but thanx to yix for helping out with translation duties.
On top of that, there have been people i believe God is leading me to reach out to, and along the way, edifying others. trying to minister to them as and when possible. just that day, i was praying with a pre-believing friend JY. still, there are many friends that have been contacting me, of whom i try to reciprocate (and nt ignore) in the hope that i'll be able to reach out to them someday, and that Christ's name will not be shamed by me.
sometimes i feel like martha, but its hard nt to be when you see needs everywhere. at times, it gets really overwhelming and i struggle so much. because of the hectic schedule and busyness, esp with ministry work, i neglect my walk with God. Oh what an irony it is!
but despite all these..i told the Lord; that i'll still give thanks in all circumstances, and praise and worship Him. i did just that yest on the school shuttle bus, and it was a bit difficult, but i still sang songs of worship in my heart. this morning, i've found the joy of worshipping God once more=) was reading ODB, and it reminded me of how the Lord always goes before us in all the paths that He is leading us (Jn 10:4) and it really reassured me. Somehow i started to worship spontaneously acapella and then it moved to worship with accompanyment. Indeed it is a joy to worship the Lord=) it realigns the focus back to Him instead of ourselves. yes, God is truely good! not because He gives me all the desires of my heart, but because He is God! ( we need to engage in a paradigm shift to achieve this perspective)
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